Bad mood blogging

NS March 21st, 2010

Me, actually

I’m in a bad mood with blogging.

I have too many unread blogs in my reader, am tiring of Twitter and also, frankly, I’m sick of ‘mummy blogging’. I’m not trying to make money off of this blog, or get freebies. I don’t want to do reviews or giveaways or try to move up the league table of parent blogging. I’m sick and tired of email after email from PR agencies who want me to help them sell their shitty ideas and products, for nothing in return. I’m tired of feeling stretched thin, taken advantage of and still unheard.

I don’t really fit in with the typical mummy blog prototype but I’m too ‘mummy blog’ to those not interested in reading about parenting at all. I’m a square peg stuck halfway between two round holes. Neither fit. And I’m starting to get creeping feelings that I may be done with this blog, that it may have run its course. It’s been five years. FIVE YEARS. Most people have been at it for one, maybe two or three. But five years? I sometimes wonder if I have anything left to say that I haven’t already. I sometimes wonder, what’s the point? Why am I spending so much time and effort on this tiny, tiny little piece of cyberspace when I have no grand plans for it, am not interested in heavily promoting or monetizing it? Do I really think some publishing agent is going to read it and offer me the book deal I yearn for? Maybe if I didn’t spend so much time blogging I would actually have the time to write the damn thing and stop treating it as some obscure pipe dream that will either never happen or just materialize and fall into my lap.

I’m so upset that I’ve just reverted to American spellings. See? After seven years here I realize that even my spelling is a facade. Do I mask my true self in order to meld with my surroundings? Is that what this blog (and my Anglicised spelling) is all about — fitting in? Is that the real me?

My hands, the ones that type word after word after word — would they be better off being used, really used, to create change? Because I’m sick of being all talk and no action. I’m sick of feeling powerless in the face of so many -isms and injustices in the world. I’m frustrated by my inability to walk the walk I fucking talk. But what I’m most frustrated with? The people who are so blind or complacent with the status quo that they don’t even want change; they don’t understand why I don’t just smile and get on with it and try to think happy thoughts because that’s just the way the world works and there’s nothing I can do about it.

I don’t want the world to work this way. It’s naive and idealistic and unrealistic, I know, but I can’t help it. The thought that I should just give up on trying to make this world a better place for my children, for those less fortunate than me and, hell, even for myself makes me feel sick to my stomach. If I gave up on that I’d be giving up on who I am and what drives me and that, in the end, would not make me happy. It would make me incredibly fucking miserable.

I’m not looking for affirmation or pity. I’m not looking for answers. But for the first time, I’m going to let myself wallow in this bad mood blogging instead of trying to fight it and soldier on. If I don’t feel like blogging for 13 days, so be it. If I want to write three posts in a row about something inane and unlikely to garner comment, with lots of cursing and no fluffy bunnies, I will. No more thinking of this space as window dressing, where only the fully-dressed and accessorized mannequins are shown after careful styling. I need to get back to the bare-bones, haphazard, behind-the-scenes blogging that made me start writing in the first place.

And if I can’t get there? I hope I’ll have the good grace to hang up my hat before it hangs me out to dry.

54 Responses to “Bad mood blogging”

  1. jen says:

    yeah, as you know I’ve struggled with the same. the only thing for it is to get back to writing (not “blogging”, which is for a public audience) for yourself. there is still plenty to write about!

    I tried to quit, but realised it was the writing, not the audience, that drew me back time and again.

    NS Reply:

    @jen, Very true. It’s time to write for ME again, not whoever is reading.

  2. I like the fact that you’re a square peg inbetween two round holes. I like that you don’t fit and aren’t pigeonholing yourself. I like the fact you don’t do reviews. I like the fact that you are not a ‘mummy blogger’. I especially like the fact that you don’t post about how wonderful your offspring are.

    I like the fact that you write interesting and challenging posts that educate me.

    Stop if you want, but I for one will miss you.

    Now I’ll take my tongue out of your arse (or ass).

    NS Reply:

    @Very Bored Housewife, Well, I do shower daily so don’t feel too squicked out. ;) Thank you for that, your kind words really mean a lot.

  3. I am a big believer in only doing things because they do for you what you want them to do for you.

    That might mean stopping blogging, or it might mean allowing yourself to a new basis for blogging.

    What do you like about blogging ?

    What would you miss if you stopped ?

    If the answer to both is “nothing” and you feel like blogging is the equivalent of a dead-end job for no pay, then what to do is obvious, but if there is something lurking under there maybe recognizing your natural motivations will help shape what you do, when you do it and how you do it, allowing your blog to be you, not a reinvention of you.

    I like the fact you are not a typical mummy blogger, I’ll take you just as you are, warts and funny spelling and all.

    NS Reply:

    @Sarah in Italy, That is very sound advice, thank you. I do still enjoy writing and I do still enjoy some of the ‘community’ feel of blogging, but not so much the pressure and the competition and the expectations that successful blogs do x, y and z and that if you don’t do those things you aren’t doing it right. So I’m going to block that bit out and get back to basics.

    Sarah in Italy Reply:

    @NS,

    Define successful.

    40 rapidly knocked off comments under a mediocre post ?

    12 zillion followers half of whom who never read you for your own sake, but hoped to get a reciprocal follow in return by clicking the button and making a few “say nothing” comments under the nearest posts just cos they are the most recent, so most likely to get noticed ?

    I’m not convinced that is how I would define success for people who are looking to be appreciated for not just what they say, but also the way they say it, since it ends up with a bloggy merry go round of the same people, in the same boat, with only a minority of “I have no blog promotion agenda” blood passing through, reading the words for their own sake.

    I read some very successful blogs, some I love to death, some recently I have been comparing with lesser known blogs that I read regularly and wondering ..how the hell did this become so popular when this other stuff is out there ?

    Which makes me wonder if the long-term auto-adulation under each post has lowered the bar so far for the writer that they haven’t even realised how “lip service” their posting has become compared to what you can find when you go archive diving and read them when their voice was fresher, sharper and more…real.

    So “success” as defined in your upper bloggy levels might actually be a virus that can kill a blog’s spirit stone dead.

    I can understand some self promotion in the early days, it ain’t much fun writing for a readership that consists entirely your duty bound sister and a husband who can’t read in English, but knows he can’t watch the footie till he at least pretends to make sense of your latest post LOL, but you are well established so I reckon even if the “I’m only here for the game plan” element of your readership drops off you will be left with a large, solid core of readers, which will grow by word of mouth along the lines of a genuine “you have to read this”, rather than on a basis of “If you show yours mine, I’ll show mine yours” mutual back scratching sort of thing.

    You have a great “voice”, I reckon let free of the gilded cage of chasing a tightly defined view of success, it will sing all the sweeter.

    You sound happier already ( :

    Me too.

    Thanks for making me think about this whilst I take my baby steps.

    Consider me vaccinated.

    PS

    I wasn’t implying you did all or any of the above, that is just what I have gleaned (rightly or wrongly) so far as to how the blogosphere “works” and relating that to what you said about “successful”.

    I have a horrible feeling I just put my foot in it,but I was thinking out loud about what you said and thinking about the direction I could chose to go in or not and sort of wittered on from there.

  4. Josie says:

    Hate that you feel so fed up with it all, but I can understand.

    I think you’re right. Just throw any thoughts of what you ‘should’ be doing out the window. Blog if and when you feel like it, on whatever you want. If that’s once a week or once a month so be it.
    And if you find a month’s past and you DIDN’T feel like it, that you didn’t miss, then maybe you have your answer.

    Because if it’s not fun, and if it doesn’t give you something, then what the hell is the point?

    Thing is though, the people that read your blog are here for you, not a cardboard cutout mummy blog. No one that enjoys your blog has expectations that you will be any different than you are. So this pressure to be ‘something’ else is not from your readers, I hope you know that.

    And if you want to pissed off with it all for a while, well then I say go for it. God only knows I get times like that, quite frequently actually. And if it means you post more photos like that one then it has to be a winner ;)

    xx

    NS Reply:

    @Josie, Ha! Yeah, that’s a classic photo isn’t it? I swear there’s a person under all that hair.

  5. I love blogging because I can write about whatever I want to write about. So if I want to write about my kids, or being a parent, then I can. If I want to write about the political situation in Bosnia, then I can. The comments on the posts with the Bosnian political situation are always much lower than the other ones, but I don’t care about that. Sometimes I like to think that if I’ve opened just one persons eyes to the fact that Bosnia is looking really tense and the possibility of resumed conflict here is a real one, then I have done something.

    I think you have to blog for yourself. Delete the PR pitches without reading them. Write about what you want to write about and don’t worry about comments or stats or audiences. Your blog is fascinating, you are different. People read you because of that. Write what you want, it is much more interesting!

    NS Reply:

    @Brit In Bosnia, Cheers hon, and the same for you. I love that you post about the political situation in Bosnia and I’ve been following it with great interest.

  6. Emily O says:

    I left a long comment and then my laptop crashed. Enough for me to hate blogging too. My comment was along the line of the others. You don’t have to be a mummy blogger at all, you can be who you want to be. You’re a talented and powerful writer and you can use your writing to educate others about important issues. Many people don’t appear to care when really it’s ignorance. You can also use your writing to support people who are trying to make a difference to the world. And blogging means you’re practising your writing regularly. There’s a lot which frustrates me about blogging too, and I can feel myself falling into the trap of worrying too much about the topics I post on. I’ve got about five drafted posts I’m unsure whether to post or not. I think I should just post them and I think you should write what you want too and ignore the rest of the stuff. Our blogs are our own spaces and I honestly think you can use your blog to do something about the things you care about.

    NS Reply:

    @Emily O, You’re right, I know. Writing is important too, not just ‘doing’. But at times it feels very frustrating. It’s just a blip, I’m sure. I think I’ll feel more positive once I make a few changes and set some new ground rules for myself.

  7. Reluctant Blogger says:

    Oh yes, me too! I have just gone on a blogbatical with no return date. I may return or I may not and Twitter too pisses me off. It’s not the individuals, it’s just it gets to feel like all those horrid female clusters you find anywhere which I tend to avoid. Individually I probably like everyone but en masse they irritate the pants off me.

    I seriously avoided the Mummy Blogging thing cos it isn’t me and for years I really didn’t read those type of blogs (well, a few quirky ones perhaps) but I dunno, I have added a few now because I like the way they write but their comment boxes make me want to vomit on occasion (all that affirmation just makes me want to chuck!) So like you I don’t seem to fit and yet my blog and it’s readers (pretty well none of them are Mummy Bloggers) is good but something about it makes me uneasy at the moment – I think it is the feeling of having a blogger filter on life rather just living life, of it sending my mood up and down a bit cos however much I pretend to myself I don’t care about comments I do.

    Oh heavens, I don’t know what it is but I have to say I have felt much better since I pulled away from it all a fortnight ago. I have kept my Reader and I scan that once a day or every other day and perhaps comment on one blog every few days if they write something that I feel I have something to say about – and that’s it. I haven’t been on Twitter for weeks although again I think I would like to go back to it but just with a very small select group of people who don’t piss me off.

    I think I am too crabby for blogging and Twitter really. All the nice chatty people get on so well there that it all just makes me feel more of a social misfit than ever.

    Oops sorry – not fair really to write all that here, I should write it on my own blog – but I can’t face it!

    NS Reply:

    @Reluctant Blogger, “Individually I probably like everyone but en masse they irritate the pants off me.”

    Yes, me too! :D

  8. Gappy says:

    I know exactly what you mean about not fitting into a category.

    I’m a mother and so of course sometimes I write about parenting and my kids – hell my blog’s even called Single Parenthood… Tales From the Front Line. But I don’t consider myself a ‘mummy blogger’ as such. My blog’s a mixture you know? I like to think that it’s also part political, part feminist, and part just for fun silly stuff too.

    The precise reason I like your blog is because you can’t be easily boxed up and labelled. It’s why I particularly like Brits in Bosnia aswell – she’s writing about all sorts of stuff. I have been trying to expand my blog reading lately because I feel a bit stuck in a mummy blog rut, and really I want to read about all sorts of things.

    Of course any decision you make is entirely your own, but I do want to let you know that I would miss reading your intelligent and interesting pieces.

    (DON’T GO NOBLE SAVAGE she says holding onto your legs, biting your ankles and snivelling….)

    NS Reply:

    @Gappy, Ow! Stop biting me, Gappy! That’s no way to make a woman stay. Try chocolate and wine instead, that’s a surefire win. :)

  9. Capital Mom says:

    Do it! Take a break. Write what you want! The best posts, and really the purpose of blogging for me, is to hear an authenitic voice. So do it.

    NS Reply:

    @Capital Mom, Thank you. I don’t know if I’ll take a ‘break’ per se but I’m definitely going to change some things. New ground afoot!

  10. lori day says:

    you need a twin. you ARE spread too thin. you are a mom, a wife, a woman, an activist, an achiever, a mover and shaker just to name a few. My suggestion: make a list prioritizing your personal goals and another for the things you feel the most strongly about giving a voice to. Pick the top two of each along with 1 from the lower part of the lists and focus on that. I personally feel that no one person can be great at everything. If your passion is writing your feelings, then write YOUR feelings–don’t go to other spaces and places and read, it takes away YOUR time – just write. By just writing, and not reading, you can devote your time to YOUR priorities. Do what you want, you have managed it well so far and I have always enjoyed your posts. Some posts you have stated so well they need NO further comment. My favorite post was the one you wrote about the trip you and NH took when you stumbled upon the woman sitting at the piano among the ravaged area. It was truly moving, I felt I was along with you every step of the way and it has stayed in my mind ever since, it was truly powerful.

    NS Reply:

    @lori day, That is a really good idea Lori, thank you. And you’re right, I need to cut out all the reading of other people’s stuff. I’m going to pick my absolutely favourites and put the others on a back burner. I need to concentrate on my own writing and goals now and that will help clear the time and head space to do so. And thanks for that comment about my Bosnia post, that is one of my favourites too so I’m pleased to know that it effected you so strongly. :)

  11. Mediocre Mum says:

    You’re not alone! Take a break and we all look forward to seeing you back soon! :-)

    NS Reply:

    @Mediocre Mum, Thanks!

  12. Anji says:

    I’d miss you if you stopped blogging forever. I have to admit I’ve had that same feeling – “haven’t I already said everything I wanted to say?” which is probably why I blog so sporadically. But I know I read everything you say and am engaged and intrigued, interested and thought-provoked. :)

    NS Reply:

    @Anji, Oh, I’m not stopping I don’t think. Just re-prioritising (See! British spellings are back so I must be calmer! ;) ) Thanks for the kind words.

  13. Expat Mum says:

    I love crabby bloggers. They write really good posts. But too many bloggers these days are completely over-thinking it. Too much pressure.

    NS Reply:

    @Expat Mum, Crabby blogger?! Well, I never! ;) I love it, if I was nifty with banners I would make that my new tagline. :D

  14. Iota says:

    I’m sorry if it was contagious… perhaps you caught it from me…

    I’ll be by to read your “bare bones” blogging, though.

    NS Reply:

    @Iota, I’d been thinking it for awhile and your post just made me realise I’m not alone in feeling a bit disconcerted with the direction blogging (or at least *my* blogging) was going in. Let me know if you manage to set up that alternative conference! :)

  15. Expat Mum says:

    Sorry – I wasn’t really calling you crabby. Reluctant Blogger used the term in her comment and I liked it. It’s a good blog name though isn’t it?

  16. Geekymummy says:

    I also love your blog precisely because you are not just a mummy blogger. The fact that you are a mother means that your writing resonates with other mums, though.

    Five years is along time, not surprised you are getting tired of it. I for one find your voice and perspective still fresh and distinctive, and would miss you if you went away.

    NS Reply:

    @Geekymummy, Thank you. :)

  17. Jo says:

    A, I don’t know how many people who read this are like me and actually know you. Laughing and having fun with you in pubs and reading you write this inspires me. Don’t dwell on those down feelings, it WILL happen for you!

    NS Reply:

    @Jo, Cheers doll! We must meet up for a drinkie soon.

  18. Great pic! :)

    I think I’m in the same boat. My big bugbear was that it got to the point where I’d be in the middle of something and I’d find myself thinking about how I’d write about it rather than savouring the experience….. I think that my last hurdle is about feeling bad for not writing anything as it sometimes seems like I had an obligation to write for this unseen and unspeaking audience rather than because I wanted to or had something to say. If I can dispense with that feeling maybe I’ll feel free to write again rather than feeling obliged to.

    Spring’s approaching. Must get together again!

    NS Reply:

    @The Brinkster, It really is a great pic, isn’t it? It makes me smile every time I see it. It kind of sums me up. :D

    Oh, and by the way, I had to go in search of those boats on your road that you recently wrote about. I saw them and now I want to know their story too! Will definitely get together at the park once the weather is a little better.

  19. I know exactly what you mean – I have being categorised as being just a ‘mummy blogger’ because I see myself as a blogger who’s also a mummy – its just one facet of my life and I blog about my entire life

    I go through phases of being less engaged – sometimes the whole prospect of being involved is too much, at the moment I have just too much on to do more than dip in and out of reading the blogs I like, especially when its hard to comment because of word verification or my phone taking a dislike to blogger blogs

    I think when it all feels like a chore, its time to take a step backwards and come back as and when it feels like something positive to do – we’ve enough chores in our lives without adding even more in

    NS Reply:

    @Muddling Along Mummy, Well, I made some big steps, I think. I cut my blogroll down by more than half, I unfollowed some people on Twitter to cut down on the constant chit-chat ‘noise’ and unfriended some folks on Facebook that I never interact with but clog up my feed with silly stuff. I feel cleansed!

  20. I actually stopped dead for the last two weeks as well (your comment on my last post actually nudged me a bit, strangely enough). Why? I don’t really know. I’m similarly torn about Twitter and a lot of the blogs I feel I ought to read because the writer left a comment once upon a time. I don’t consider myself a “daddy blogger” – there’s something infantilizing (is that a word?) about the terms ‘daddy’ and ‘mummy’ bloggers. Why not father and mother bloggers? Or parent bloggers? Or just plain bloggers?

    Sorry, straying off the point. What I mean is, I’ve been feeling the same way. Sometimes blogging just doesn’t feel a very worthwhile or productive activity. I don’t particularly like the sense that people might think I’m blogging for affirmation of some kind or because I want to get on some league table or other (actually, I suspect no-one thinks the former). I write to challenge a few preconceptions. Or to experiment with a thought. Or to save a moment for myself for later. Or to inform people about something.

    “No more thinking of this space as window dressing, where only the fully-dressed and accessorized mannequins are shown after careful styling. I need to get back to the bare-bones, haphazard, behind-the-scenes blogging that made me start writing in the first place.”

    Yup. Completely. That’s why I shuttered my previous blog and a little of that is creeping into dadwhowrites (possibly why I didn’t write anything for a while. Along with a nasty sense of feeling obligated.

    Thanks for the reminder. I’ll take it as a call to arms, of sorts. (“Bumper stickers should be issued.”)

    NS Reply:

    @Dad Who Writes, “there’s something infantilizing (is that a word?) about the terms ‘daddy’ and ‘mummy’ bloggers. Why not father and mother bloggers? Or parent bloggers? Or just plain bloggers?”

    Yes, exactly! I actually started this blog before I was even a parent so it was never intended to be just about that. In fact, it started off as an expat blog and then morphed into an ‘whatever I want to talk about’ blog. To be put in a box like that just annoys the crap outta me.

    I’m happy to hand out bumper stickers with you! ;D

  21. Lyn says:

    Write only from your heart and it won’t be a chore. If your heart isn’t in it, then don’t write anything. And don’t worry about who follows your blog. Just like the journals of your youth, make your blog your personal outlet. Close the cyber door and lock yourself in your inner space. If it is a chore to twitter, comment, read, just let it all go. I love reading your blog but I know sometimes we all need to take a break. I haven’t posted on my blog since November, but that does not mean I haven’t been writing. I just haven’t had it in me to share. Do what you need to do for you. You are fabulous as you are, don’t lose yourself to what you think others expect of you.

    NS Reply:

    @Lyn, Thanks Mom. :)

  22. Deer Baby says:

    I loved your description of the shop window with the mannequins all carefully styled – that’s a perfect analogy with blogging. Sometimes I just want to let rip – write it as I think it and hit publish – but I never do, I primp and preen and make sure it’s looking its best. I too wonder if I am wasting my time when I could be writing that novel.

    I had a similar blip not very long ago – I had the strange sensation of being at a party stone cold sober when everyone else was drunk and it all seemed so silly. I could see it all swirling around me but couldn’t jump back in. I came back because I missed the writing. It didn’t take long to get sucked back into the vortex.

    I don’t even get hassled by PR’s – they don’t know I exist – and I’m grateful (I get enough of that in my real job).

    I think you are an original voice and won’t be pigeonholed.
    As long as it is fulfilling you, then you will keep on.
    x

    NS Reply:

    @Deer Baby, Let it rip, I say! I am going to embrace doing just that again. If it means I’m too much for some people, so be it. I’m tired of restraining my true self for what I perceive to be others’ expectations.

  23. BoozleBox says:

    I hope you can find your mojo again as I always like reading your blog. I’ve not blogged for months for several reasons but a major reason is I don’t want to blog for the sake of it. I’ve read alot of blogs and many are frankly boring as hell. I don’t want to post boring stuff for the sake of it or because I feel I ought to post every day. You can count my favourite blogs on the fingers of one hand and when I try and define why I like them it comes down to their authenticity married with real writing talent. You write authentically, truthfully, and with with passion and your posts usually make me think even when I disagree (which can be quite often!) so I’ll be back for more if and when you get the urge. But I think that’s quite enough bloggy love for one day. ;-)

    NS Reply:

    @BoozleBox, I love that you still read me even when you disagree. So many people just move on when they don’t agree with everything a blogger says. I like to be challenged and so read things I don’t always agree with so I’m glad I can do that for you. Thanks for your nice words.

  24. Abby says:

    I know exactly what you mean. One of my new years resolutions was to simplify my online life. I left facebook (gasp!), never started with twitter, and paired down my blogroll to only bogs that I really, really loved. Afterwards, I felt so much lighter and didn’t dread opening my google reader!

    It is sad and scary how competitive the world of mummy blogging (ick! i hate that term, too!) has gotten. I know that our blogs are very difference in style and content, and really, mine is pure fluff. But I like that about it. It is there to keep friends and family back home up to date on our daily lives…not to make money. (Not that yours is, of course) I just really dislike this trend, and it makes me sad to see UK mum blogs go the way of mom blogs in the US.

    Like everyone else, I would miss your blog if you stopped. I think you add a fresh and much needed extra dimension, and I really enjoy reading. So take a break if you need to, I’ll be here ready to read when you come back!

    NS Reply:

    @Abby, I don’t think your blog is pure fluff! I love reading it, and seeing all your gorgeous photos. And I’ve recently discovered some new blogs through yours so thank you! I’m loving looking at all of these photography and art blogs instead of just my usual wordy/political blogs. I’m glad I found you again because for awhile you had to log in to WordPress.com to access your site and I couldn’t visit!

  25. Kristine says:

    Crabby bloggers are funny reads. But, if you are getting angsty, take a break. There’s a fine line between crabby/snarky, and just plain bitchy.

    NS Reply:

    @Kristine, Yeah, and I don’t really want to cross that line, at least not about other people.

  26. I only recently discovered your blog. I find your writing vivid, stunning and honest and hope you continue to share as and when your spirit moves you. You are original and thought provoking and that alone makes a difference.

    I’m also a US expat. I love writing and my pregnancy last year was a catalyst for me to start doing it more often. I didn’t even discover the whole blogging community for ages because for me it’s all about the writing. Discovering this abyss was at first overwhelming – all the comments, competitions, followers – but I’m trying to stay focused on my writing and not all the stats and have in turn found some throught provoking blogs, yours being one of them.

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  28. I’m coming to this discussion so late because I’ve been feeling the same way. I’m overwhelmed by this sense of, I don’t know, keeping up with the Joneses of the blogging world. I’ve completely swamped my reader with hopes of keeping up, but to what end? I never read it, and frankly, I don’t care. I’m ashamed to admit that I’ve put blogs in my blogroll to be “nice,” not because they really deserve it, but I’m not sure I can get out of this painted corner at this point. We’ll see.

    It’s so crazy how similar I feel about all of this as you do. My blog started out as writing about my son and has now become a place where I write about my thoughts on motherhood, but you should see the topics I have lined up for publishing: body image, marginalization of women, fathers’ roles… nary a post about my son’s latest development, and I’ve actually been feeling badly about this turn. I feel like my readers read my blog for the mothering aspect, not the Jessica aspect. Although, everyone would call me a mommy blogger.

    I dunno… I think I’ve rambled through out this comment. As a side note, I originally read this post at around 5 am this morning after I received a call that my friend was giving birth. I fell back asleep and dreamed that you and I had coffee. hahaha
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