Archive for October, 2009

Fuck Fashion

NS October 15th, 2009

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I don’t care about fashion. Never have, never will. To be honest, I’ve always found the idea of caring about labels and the latest styles a little alien. I just don’t see the attraction. Spending all that time researching what’s new, spending all of that money obtaining it, only for it to be replaced by some other trend mere months later…it just seems pointless and endless and strange.

The throwaway culture it creates and the part fashion plays in fueling rampant and thoughtless consumerism is only one of my concerns, though. I’m also concerned with not only how the fashion industry portrays models and sets up an impossible beauty standards for ‘regular’ women, but also with the entire idea behind clothing and how we look at it as being a way to express and define ourselves.

Fashion was created by (for the most part) rich, white men who had very specific, rigid ideas of what women should look and act like. Since the first pencil was put to sketch pad to create a drawing for the Autumn/Winter collection, we have been adhering to what a select group of people very preoccupied with aesthetics and symmetry think is beautiful and inspiring and, ergo, fashionable. The women who will wear the clothes are of little concern or consequence. Our needs or desires pale in comparison with these men’s artistic vision. We are but grease marks in shades of charcoal on the drafting board to them. What do we know?

Let’s think about the history of and impetus behind fashion a little more. What do these designers base their ideas on, where do they get their inspiration and what or who told them that they needed to use very thin, boyish bodies for these designs to ‘work’? If it’s mainly men doing the designing, how do they know what will fit and flatter women, and be practical for their varying shapes and stages of life? The short answer is that they don’t. The long answer involves a favourite word ’round these parts, one that begins with a big, fat capital P. Any guesses?

But none of that really matters because what’s done is done. We can’t go back and change how men have viewed and controlled women, felt entitled to their bodies, since the beginning of time. Hell, if we can’t even convince many women that they’re not living in a post-feminist world where they are fully respected and on equal footing with men in the areas that matter, then what hope do we have of changing what the rich, white dudes think?

They have a vested interest in keeping us tightly bound up, corseted to our eyebrows and tottering on the highest of heels, even if it causes us discomfort and ill health. They have a vested interest in keeping us smooth, hairless, perfectly made-up and shiny, even if it wastes much of our time and money. They have a vested interest in keeping us slim and pretty and willing to do anything to make or keep ourselves that way. They have a vested interest in our self-hatred and our self-consciousness because it keeps us busy and our minds off of our 1 in 6 chance of being sexually assaulted, or our 1 in 3 chance of being cut open in childbirth in the U.S. (1 in 4 chance in the UK), or our 83 pence to every man’s pound earned.

Vered at MomGrind wrote a post yesterday in which she expressed disbelief and disgust at Karl Lagerfeld’s comment that women who complain about thin models are “fat mummies” who “sit in front of the television eating crisps.” She encouraged us to not put any stock in what he says and shrug it off as the ridiculous and pitiful statement it is. And she’s right, of course, we shouldn’t give two shits what a wealthy, septuagenarian man thinks of us, or what we wear or say or do. Because who cares, right? I certainly don’t.

But a lot of women do. A lot of women follow fashion like a sport and think shopping is next to godliness and that these designers are the fucking Messiah. So they will indeed care what he says.

Vered also linked to a post I wrote on the Roman Polanski rape debacle and apty tied that into how our society seems so prepared to forgive or dismiss  rich, white men’s eccentricities and even their crimes because we consider their ‘genius’ more valuable than the people they damage. I left this comment on her post:

The fashion world and Hollywood need to be tied together with heavy stones and thrown into the ocean, as far as I’m concerned. I really don’t understand why so many women make themselves slaves to what these industries say we should do. A dress or a magazine or a movie aren’t motivation enough for me to destroy my self-worth.

Fashion is a large part of what I find so vacuous and intellectually bankrupt about our consumerist culture. Who the shit cares if a handbag was made by orphans in Bangladesh, right? So long as it’s got some rich white dude’s name stitched on the front in 24 karat gold, everyone can see that you’ve got money and need someone you’ve never met to tell you what to wear. Apparently this is a sign of status and progress. Ha-hardy-har! The patriarchy has successfully deflected our attention away from all of the violence and discrimination against women with shiny objects and busied us with eating disorders and clawing one another’s eyes out in our quest to epitomize their fantasies. Well done, rich white dudes, I’ve got to hand it to you, you’ve done a stellar job.

I think I’ll go be sick now, but not because I want to fit into that little black dress. Most likely I’ve just eaten too many crisps.

Because you know what, Karl Lagerfeld? I am what you would almost certainly call a ‘fat mummy’ and I eat crisps, happily, whenever the hell I want. I don’t stick my fingers down my throat afterwards so I can fit into whatever the hell bizarro-world clothes creation you’ve come up with lately, and you know that real women with a healthy dose of self-confidence don’t either. We can shrug off what you say with a laugh and a slap of our blubberous thighs and go back to our meaningful lives, ones with relationships to nourish and children to raise and jobs to perform and memories to create. You can’t get to us and it infuriates you, no doubt. We are a segment of the market you haven’t been able to crack, though lord knows you’ve tried. We aren’t many in number, granted. You’ve already gotten to most of our sisters, filled their heads with your ideas of beauty and perfection and cost them the ability to enjoy life and their bodies and the clothes on their backs on their own terms, for their own purposes and for their own bodies.

So it’s not for me, but for them, when I say Fuck you, fashion industry. Fuck you and the clothes horse you rode in on. Fuck your size zero models and use of Photoshop to make women’s hips appear slimmer than their heads. Fuck you for firing models for gaining five pounds and no longer fitting the skeletal mold you have created. But most of all, fuck you for getting inside the heads and hearts of millions of women the world over, infecting them with your “vision.”

I don’t need clothes or hats or shoes to express myself, or give me confidence or define who I am. If someone wants to pigeonhole me based on my attire that is their problem, not mine. All I need to be me, to be a woman, are the courage of my convictions and the words to tell you where to go when you try to stuff me into your pretty little boxes in the name of a deluded form of masochism called Fashion.

I don’t wear pencil skirts, I hold pens. I don’t need the pictures in Vogue, I have words; words sharper than the hipbones jutting out of the girls parading down the catwalk wearing the latest article of clothing from your  self-hatred-breeding machine.

I don’t need fashion, I have a voice. And I’m not afraid to use it.

Image found at nuacco.com

Google can solve your marriage problems

NS October 14th, 2009

Or at least that’s what some people think.

Go to Google and type in Why is my husband and see the list that it auto-suggests. Some of the good ones include:

…so mean to me

…such a jerk

…so moody

…so angry

…so grumpy

…so selfish

…so stupid

Type in Why is my wife and you get:

…so mean

…so unhappy

…always mad

…so stupid

…always tired

…so angry

…cheating

…crazy

…so cold

It looks like the sexes can at least agree on one thing — both men and women can be mean, stupid and angry. Probably because their spouses rely on internet search engines instead of face-to-face communication, is my guess.

Go on, ask Google something and let us know what you find!

H/t to The Noble Husband for spotting this

Hi ho, hi ho, it’s off to work I go

NS October 12th, 2009

I know I’ve made some noises before about wanting to get back to paid work but I’ve never been more than merely vague and ‘one-of-these-days’ about it. Something has really lit a fire under my ass, though, and I am no longer just considering it, I’m officially Looking For A Job. This also means I am looking for childcare, trying to get my head wrapped around all of the different options (and their associated costs) and what that means for our finances.

There are a few career options that I’m weighing up and none of them are easy. The one that has the greatest potential for career fulfillment (freelance writing) is also the riskiest, of course, while the safer options have the greatest chance of either being too unworkable (I have virtually no contacts or portfolio, aside from online stuff), paying too little, being too stressful or leaving me languishing at the bottom of the food chain, writing obits for my local paper with people ten years  younger than me who would probably earn more than me anyhow. On the other hand, an office job would give me good experience and a steady income. That’s nothing to be sneezed at either, I suppose.

Then there’s the whole issue of how my return to paid employment will affect my children, my marriage and our entire household. I can already feel little pangs of guilt and sadness when I even think of leaving my precious babies with a stranger (or strangers) 2-5 days a week and dread the associated hardships that working motherhood will inevitably bring.

But. BUT.

I’m also so unbelievably excited and feel an almost overwhelming sense of  happiness when I consider doing something for me, for my career and my fulfillment, for a change. I’ve been looking after everyone else for almost four years — it’s time I strap on my big-girl boots and walk, run or kick my way into the next chapter of life, I think.

It won’t be easy, that I know. There are sure to be trials, tears and tribulations to come. But I know with every fibre of my being that I am ready and that I can do this and that my children will be better off for having a happier, more self-confident mother.

Watch out world, here I come!

Any suggestions, tips, advice, etc… are most welcome, particularly about breaking into either print or freelance journalism, advocacy work for women’s organisations and/or securing childcare. Short of that, a book deal with a six-figure advance would be looked upon favourably, too. ;-)

Friday Flashback

NS October 9th, 2009

This blog is coming up to five years old — FIVE YEARS! – so I thought it’d be fun to post a few oldies. I put a shout out on Twitter asking for five different dates, beginning with February 2005 and one for each year up to now. The dates chosen were:

6th September 2005 by @ghostlove

10th April 2006 by @RosieScribble

26th January 2007 by @Caroljs

17th August 2008 by @LauraAWNTYM

22nd May 2009 by @InsomniacMummy

Thanks to @notSupermum and winafred_jen for also picking dates but I had to go with the first ones I received. As it turns out, none of the posts I’m featuring was written on any of the actual dates picked. So what I did was round up and go to the next nearest date for each one. Without further ado, a little peek into the Ghost of Noble Savage Past.

First up, a post from 5 October 2005 in which I rage against the British banking system, aptly titled “The Devil Works in Banking.” Here’s a little snippet:

Grievance #1: Opening an account when you’re not a citizen is about as easy as milking a snake. First, you are told that you must have an apartment, a job, and/or have lived here for a year before you will be granted the holiest-of-holies “The Current Account” (as opposed to a Past or Future account?) Once you finally meet one of these criteria, you are told to bring in your passport, two bills with your current address, the completed forms, a letter from your employer, a pay stub, your tenancy agreement, a character reference, your photo albums, a generous dowry, a monkey, a midget and the blood of a wise man. After they take all of said items from you they disappear into the back room for 3 hours, only to reappear with grim faces and a rejection letter. The monkey is returned but has a pronounced limp. They tell you to try again in 14.5 weeks. And so the process continues.

I did eventually get a banking account, though I think it cost me a few grey hairs and several spikes in blood pressure.

Next up, on 10 April 2006, the labour story of The Noble Child, as written eight days after her birth.Things moved a little more quickly than I had anticipated, hence this paragraph:

Once things started they moved very quickly so there was none of this ’spend the first six hours at home, taking baths and sipping tea, having your husband time the mild contractions.’ Nope, none of that for me. It was “Ooh, that was a contraction. Ooh, that was another one. Holy shit, there it is again! My god, get the stopwatch, they’re only 3 minutes apart!” No time to eat or sip tea. Damn!

On 30 January 2007 we are treated to my crazed ramblings as I contemplate 192 hours of solitude with TNC while TNH is in Kazakhstan, in which I reveal her and TNH’s real names (gasp!), threaten to castrate the Internet and jump off of London Bridge, all within a few paragraphs. I have to wonder what I was on back then because I think I sound a little loopy! It must’ve been the sleep deprivation talking. A sampling of my madness:

I’ve also decided that I’m tired of referring to my daughter and husband with acronyms and code names on this site all the time. It’s not like I have this huge readership or even an internet stalker (because, you know, you’re nobody until somebody stalks you) who would be interested in finding out every detail about me and my family and then hunting us down and sneaking into our house while we’re at the store buying more cheese, so that he (or she! I’m an equal opportunity stalking victim wannabe) can lick all of the doorknobs and try on my underwear. So guess what, world? My husband’s name is Paul and my daughter’s name is Amelia and they’re both fucking fabulous. If you speak ill of either of them, I will cut your internet-stalking balls off and string them on next year’s Christmas tree. Capiche? Great.

18 August 2008 finds me eight months pregnant with TNB and puking my guts out. Enjoy! Stick a fork in me includes the following lovely imagery:

Just now I coughed so hard that I threw up my breakfast into TNC’s training potty, which thankfully happened to be near my feet. I never realised how difficult and painful it is to cough with such force when your stomach muscles are stretched on both sides to somewhere near your elbows, leaving little to support your heaving abdomen.

And finally,  from 23 May of this year. Entitled Depravity With Dolls, I go on a lactivist rant about the strange, strange world of lactophobia (i.e.  people who are terrified of boob juice). I concluded my rant with:

Give it a rest already, or else I might have to squirt milk in your eye. And we all know that if breastmilk touches human retinas it renders you completely and permanently blind within seconds, such is the power of its destructiveness. Mmwaahahahahaha!

I hope you enjoyed your peek into the past few years of Noble Savage! I’ll pick my personal favourites for the actual five year bloggiversary in February.

Happy Friday!

Maybe tomorrow, the good lord will take you away

NS October 6th, 2009

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While driving in the car the other day, I put in a classic rock mixed cd that I made a few years ago and skipped forward to the third track — “Dream On” by Aerosmith, circa 1973 (song and lyrics here).

As I belted out the lyrics and slapped my palms on the steering wheel in time to the riffs, rocking out in a big way, I realised that the children had been silent for a couple minutes. Knowing that silence is very rarely a good thing, I sat up a little higher in my seat and strained to get a glimpse of TNC in my rearview mirror. She had a face like thunder and was looking very cross indeed. I turned the music down a notch and asked her very breezily, “What’s wrong, muffin?”

“Stop singing, Mummy! You can’t sing.”

“Oh yes, I can. I’m a wonderful singer!”

“No! You’re not. No more singing.”

“What, you mean like this? (cue more crazed rocking out)

“Noooooo! Stop it this minute, Mummy.”

…sing for the laughter, sing for the tear. Sing with me, if it’s just for today…

“Aaagggh! Stop, Mummy, stop! This song is not for Mummies, it’s for children.”

“It’s for children, is it?”

“Yes. Children and babies.”

“Honey, this song was recorded before you or I were even alive, but at least I grew up listening to it. This is called Classic Rock and it is the greatest music in the whole, wide world. And this particular song is…”

“No! Be quiet! Only for children and babies, I said! Not mummies or daddies. You can’t sing it, only I can.”

“Go on then, let’s hear it. I’ll be thrilled if  you know the words to Steven Tyler’s masterpiece from Aerosmith’s debut album, before all of the scarf and mic stand-tossing, big hair, and videos where the camera goes inside his  mouth, which is just creepy, frankly.”

stony silence from the backseat

“That’s what I thought. Now, up next is ‘Big Yellow Taxi’ by Joni Mitchell. You’re going to love that one. Mummy will be singing in a very high voice and then doing a funny little laugh at the end. Prepare yourself, ’cause I ain’t dialin’ it down for no one, including you, Little Miss.”

She didn’t speak again until we arrived at our destination. Which was kind of nice, you know?

Still, I’m not sure if I’m instilling a love of this music into her, or if I’m driving her straight into the arms of emo pop, or whatever the hell kind of music kids listen to now (I’m not even stuck on my generation’s music, but on that of my parents’ — what hope is there for me keeping up with the new crap coming out these days)?

No, I will always love my classic rock and sing it very loudly in the car and the kids will just have to start wearing earplugs and perhaps masks so their friends don’t recognise them when they get older and I’m gyrating wildly to “Paint It Black” at a red light, frothing slightly at the mouth.

This is a fun bit of parenting, I have to say. I like it.

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