Comfort food

NS September 10th, 2007

P is out tonight so I made dinner for myself. The kiddo went to bed early since she didn’t take an afternoon nap, so I poured a glass of wine, put on some Frou Frou and started making a meal that was very simple but so good. Penne puttanesca with garlic, capers and anchovies and a salad consisting of fresh spinach leaves, walnut pieces, crumbled stilton cheese and strawberries with an olive oil and balsamic vinegar dressing. Not bad for a solo dinner, if I do say so myself. And now, if you’ll excuse me, I’m going to also have a cup of tea and whatever remains from Saturday night’s pint of Ben & Jerry’s ice cream.

There is just something so satisfying about a good meal, isn’t there? This is why I find ‘dieting’ difficult. Food is a real source of joy to me and I’m just miserable when I try to subsist on salads, water and fruit. I love all three of those things but I also love my real, filling, hearty meals and favorite snacks. But alas, I really need to get out of this mentality if I’m going to lose weight. I really, really want to lose at least 10 lbs and possibly up to 15. I don’t hate my body (I just have too much self-esteem for that, I guess) and I definitely feel sexy a lot, but when I’m naked and look down at my body and that ‘baby shelf’ of fat around my midsection that just won’t shift and that juts out, soft and jelly-like, in my full-length profile. I want to say goodbye to it, and to the increased risk of heart disease and diabetes that I incur while it sits there.

I’m not making promises because I’m still not sure how I feel about ‘dieting’ and if I’m ready to say goodbye to cheese, popcorn, ice cream, et al, but I definitely want to try. I have a smoothie already made in the fridge for my snack tomorrow, so we’ll see how that goes.

Wish me luck!  And please refrain from mentioning Kit Kats.

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